Paul Holmes

Hi and many thanks for stopping by. I am 43 from London, married and work part time as a writer and part time as anything else that comes along. I was a train driver until 2003, but was injured during an incident. As a result the next 6 years were a constant struggle fighting depression, anxiety disorder, PTSD and anger management issues. I took up writing, via blog form in the 2005, I did this to try to make sense of everything that was going on around me. From these writings came my first book A Man Derailed, which tells the story of the crash and the aftermarth that followed.

The most important thing for me now is that I can write about all the troubles in past tense. I never dreamt that I would ever get to this point in my life, I do feel lucky, but it was a lot of hard work. I want to share those huge life changing moments that changed me, I want to show that there are things we can do to make our lives better. The importance of diet and exercise, getting back that quality of life we all deserve.

I still have my moments, that black cloud still lurks around the corner now and then. I still dream of a full nights sleep and find motivating myself impossible sometimes. However, I seem to have found some sort of strength to deal with this, so thankfully these bouts of depression do not seem to last as long as they used to.

I very much look forward to sharing this with you, and I hope you will share your thoughts with me as well.

A Poem.

I love writing poetry. It helps me get rid of the crap that goes round and round in my brain that sometimes prevents my creativity. This is a bit of self indulgence, so I appreciate that this may not be the sort of thing you would want to read on a...

13th July 2012

Motivation

How to Get rid of depression. Step 2. Eat a good healthy diet, consisting of fruit, veg, proteins & carbs Step 3. Drink water, keep hydrated. Lay off the coffee, tea & booze. Step 4. Take care of yourself, shower yourself, take pride in how...

13th July 2012

Discrimination from the Prime Minister

Well congratulations to our Prime Minister. His attitude this week to sufferers of Tourette’s and Alzhiemers just demonstrates how this government really sees mentally disabled people as the lowest in society. A Prime Minister...

8th January 2012

Are New Years Resolutions good for you?

Firstly I would like to wish everyone a happy new year. I actually mean that. We banter these phrases about like no bodies business, with no feeling or meaning. However, I really do wish you a HAPPY new year. For some of us it means a new...

3rd January 2012

Can a loaf of bread make you feel good?

Answer. Yes if you bake it yourself. Yes I know you can go and buy a loaf full of chemicals and preservatives for a quid down the local supermarket. It will be sliced, tasteless and just act as a practical way of filling you up. Okay that...

4th November 2011

Do you remember when....?

It finally happened, quick get out the grey cardigan, the slippers, get me a pipe and dentures. I started a sentence the other day with “I remember when.....” It doesn’t matter what I remembered, it’s how I said it. “...

4th November 2011

Using food for pain.

My eating disorder sort of crept up on me, and if I have to be honest, I didn’t realise I had one until it had really taken hold. In 2003 I was living a “normal” life, job, mortgage and recently married. I...

15th September 2011

Music to lift your mood.

So it’s the summer of 1985. I am a Mod, yes a Mod. I wear suits and two tone shoes, I have a Bruce Foxton haircut, only because I was not slim enough to look like Paul Weller. I didn’t wear a Parker, but an Italian Generals...

2nd September 2011

The Biggest Step I took to holding Depression at bay..

Several years after my crash and lots of severe depression I realised that I needed something that was going to make me fit to return to society. Something that would give me self confidence, something that would help me feel good about myself,...

20th August 2011

Do you lie on your CV?

In two weeks time I loose my job. It is no suprise, I took a 3 month contract in May and now the time is up. I was worried, I did think my mood would sink and depression would engulf me with worry about finding something else....

13th August 2011

The Importance of Mental Healthy.

I thought as a follow up to my previous post, that I would explain why I wanted to blog on Mental Healthy. I am passionate about getting rid of the stigma surrounding mental health. I appreciate for many it’s not a sexy subject that...

13th August 2011

Hello from me.

So here I go, my first blog for Mental Healthy. As I sit here writing away, I felt it would only be fair you should know a little about me. That way you can understand where I am coming from when I write blogs in the future. After all we all have...

3rd August 2011