Stuck in Depression Still...

by Jade S

I still haven't recovered from this depression I am trapped in.  It takes all my energy just to make it to my computer, to get dressed, to wake up.  I don't have words to describe this feeling and so I'm reaching out to you, Reader, to describe it for me.  What are your words for depression?  How can I communicate the way I feel to other people in a way they can understand?

On a more positive note, these are some things that seem to help:

  1. Music
  2. Creativity (Artwork)
  3. Journaling
  4. Excercise
  5. Talking to someone
  6. Spending time outside
  7. Dancing
  8. Cleaning/Re-organizing
  9. Resting
  10. Making something for someone
  11. Dressing up
  12. Putting on make-up/cologne, etc.
  13. Reading



For me depression is overwhelming hopelessness and an inability to see into the future.

Definitely an inability to see into the future

When I am depressed (as I am now) I feel totally exhausted, unable to concentrate, very tense, despairing and unable to believe things will improve. I cry a lot and often have to fight the urge to hurt myself to relieve the mental pain. I long for my life to end so I can have peace. I also feel guilt for worrying those who love me and try to help and support me.


p.s. I hope you feel better soon

I've been reading some of your blogs and notice that there is little, or no, mention of mindfulness work. It's been incorporated into therapeutic work and I've used it for many years in my clinical work with those who have depression, BPD or other issues such as addictions or trauma. There have been more recent developments with it, such as with mindfulness-based multidynamic therapy which looks at the individual within a context and assists people to make sense of their lives and experiences and to build their internal resilience and skills. It's important to recognise that mindfulness is a way of being that also uses practices, but that those practices should be used with care and caution as bringing awareness and focusing attention on yourself can allow other stuff to come to the fore. Using the concepts and practices really can help one to regain a sense of balance and control, and to keep perspective, when things are feeling tough or out of control. The book Life Happens is based on the above model that was developed from a clinical foundation rather than a purely theoretical one. It includes 2 CDs and is written specifically for the public. Regards Dr Cheryl Rezek (Clinical Psychologist)

THANK YOU Doctor Rezek,
Mindfulness is such a big chunk of Borderline Treatment that I haven't begun to touch it yet :) There is also a book called Mindfulness by Langer I believe, which is a guide. I have found the Dhammapada by Buddha to be very helpful, and have kept a pocket version of it for emergency situations. I will be bringing up mindfulness, especially Marsha Linehan's view of it, in my next blog for Borderline, which I will write immediately. Thank you so much for your courteous critique!! I am so looking forward to more discussions about this and other topics.

Hi, Jade:

When I am feeling really down (quite a few months a year) I try to remember a very simple quote: "this too shall pass". When you feel like your world has become black it's hard to understand that it will become brighter. Just try. Try to remember when you were well and understand that you will be well again.


This too shall pass.........take a power nap. (maybe 2)...but a mental blackout seems to reboot me to a point, anyway. I am my own worst enemy, for sure. Nice Blog!
This too shall pass.........take a power nap. (maybe 2)...but a mental blackout seems to reboot me to a point, anyway. I am my own worst enemy, for sure. Nice Blog!

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